#adora's ptsd

[dare0451]

i desperately need rebecca sugar, nd stevenson, and toby fox to team up on a project made Explicitly For Adults. theyre all visionaries of horrifyingly toxic queer relationships being held back by their art being aimed at kids. somebody let those bitches off the leash!!!

[typethreeghost]

adora knowing when catra was distressed from horde prime's chip in 'don't go' without speaking 🤝 catra knowing when adora's getting ptsd from eveything that happened without speaking

[courfaeriec]

adora from shera might not have been written w autism in mind and her behaviors are explained by her ptsd and INTERESTING upbringing but oh lordy i have never felt so autistically represented in media

i feel like people focus on entraptas autism and im so so happy to have entrapta there but also AUTISTIC ADORA i love her and her stimmy motions and her rigid thinking and her rubbish social skills and her tight planning and her clumsiness.

ty adora

[baggebythesea]

My favourite She-Ra post canon headcanons

Mystacor spa vacation for a month after the war

Best auntie Casta makes sweaters for everyone

The other princesses gleefully refuse to let Glimmer off the hook as over-queen (or as Bow like to call it - queen-queen) of all of Etheria. Lots of meetings and paperwork for our favourite queen

Catra is made second-in-command. Glimmer takes petty delight in throwing more and more stupid titles at First-Vizir Expert Logistic Coordinator Catra whenever she annoys her (which is often)

Therapy

Every parental figure in Etheria get together and decide that a) Frosta is their child now and b) Despite her protests, Frosta should go back to school

She-Ra spends most of her time subduing remaining robots and monsters, and working to repair war-damaged villages. She has a much less stressful time now when her friends are not constantly in mortal danger.

Most etherians, being a bit fuzzy on what exactly the deal was between Hordak and Prime, decide that Horde Prime was some kind of upstart that tried to usurp Hordak's rightful throne, and that Hordak cast him down in the end. This annoys Hordak immensely, especially since the other clones do nothing to correct them.

To his great discomfort, a group of clones who have a hard time with the 'free will' concept try to follow Hordak as the new Prime. Entrapta sets up a school for them.

Entrapta nearly dies from sleep deprivation as she tries to reverse engineer Horde Prime's tech. It takes Hordak, Imp, Emily, Wrong Hordak, a whole squadron of clones, the super pal trio, Bow and the entire princess alliance to convince her that she can keep working on it the next day

Entrapta totally runs Doom on Light Hope's old hardware. Fortunatelly Hordak manages to install some safety measures. Adora tears up when she realizes that it still spawns spiders.

Hordak takes up philosophy and has a surprising talent for it. This leads to a slow but steady thaw and eventual bonding between him and Bow's dads.

So Much PDA

(and so much PTSD)

Swift Wind, Bow and Sea Hawk invite Micah, Wrong Hordak and - to his great chagrin - Hordak to their boys night. No one invited Double Trouble but they come along anyway. Much shenanigans are had.

Mermista and Perfuma keeps hitting illegal clubs where they can let lose and forget all about queenship and cosmic harmony for a night. When Glimmer finds out she demands they bring her along

Catra and Hordak keep up a vitriolic but deep friendship. They sometimes go on secret missions together to 'sort out things the princesses don't need to know about'

Bow and Scorpia becomes tea-party buddies.

Double Trouble, Swift Wind and Wrong Hordak set up a 'legitimate business enterprise' which totally isn't a series of more and more convoluted scams

[witch-apologist]

'Catras scratched Octavia!!!!! That shows she's always been a violent abuser!"

You mean one of her abusers? You mean one of the many cruel adults who maintained and upheld the system she was abused under every single day? The horde soldier? That's who you're calling a victim of catra? The grown ass woman who helped hordak and shadow Weaver abuse all of the horde children and colonize etheria? Abuse victim of the 6 year old? Idgaf if she lost an eye for that shit catra should have taken both and shadow weavers and hordaks.

Also if she's capable of scratching an eye out at SIX don't you think that says something of the teensy scratches on Adora? How Catra never went for anything vital? How surface level scratches are all she did? No no nuance is dead so catras actually an abuser for hurting an abuser adult as a child and having a panic attack (which btw for those of you who don't understand physical abuse against children and only know abuse in terms of your toxic middle school ex, CAN INCLUDE OUTBURSTS OF VIOLENCE WHEN PTSD IS TRIGGERED) when her literal only reason she's alive is threatened (according to the perceptions of a ln abused 6 year old who has already been told in no uncertain terms that she's gonna be disposed of as soon as Adora doesn't want her around. )

I hope none of y'all ever work with abused kids, you're genuinely awful people the way you villainize trauma responses and survival instincts in children. You'd call a little girl an abuser for hurting a child abuser.

[antispopausandstuff]

stans criticize antis for including the scene of Catra scarring Adora as a child in the cycle of abuse, going on about how she was just a kid, that a kid can't be abusive, etc., but here's the thing:

there's this kid i know and love. they're autistic, non-verbal // limited in speech, and are prone to emotional bursts. they always know more than people think, try to help you if you cry, and absolutely loves sharing food // treats with others and meeting new people.

but there are times i'm scared of them. hell, there's times i, admittedly, hate them.

i understand that they have little impulse control, that they're a child, a disabled one at that, and they don't understand the consequences of hurting someone or maybe even that they're hurting someone at all, but your "fight or flight", your anxiety, your fears, PTSD, etc. does not care who or what it is.

that and, honestly, i still resent my bullies. i know they were kids, too, but that doesn't take away from the pain and embarrassment i felt. for so long, i thought i was completely unlikable, and it was because of them. my ma tried to teach me the "ignore them", "kill them with kindness", "sympathy // empathy" lessons, but none of them worked.

bullying and abuse aren't that different, if they are at all. the victims always suffer, in one way or another, and bullying // abuse can lead to suicide, mental decline, physical decline, and overall ruin your entire fucking life for so long.

i understand that kids are little balls of energy and don't understand the consequences of their actions. my bullies likely thought what happened to me wasn't a big deal or was just a joke. maybe they didn't even have bad intentions in the first place. but that doesn't take away what i've gone through since then, because of them.

Catra was a child, yes, but so was Adora. why do you forget that? any child would be scared of someone, even their best friend in the whole world, if they just suddenly clawed them in the face just for asking "why did you do it?", any child. anyone, in fact.

there's exceptions, but generally speaking, we're afraid of what severely hurts us. Catra severely hurt Adora, just for asking a question that anyone else would've asked.

the cycle of abuse continued when Catra didn't care about Adora's health and safety, meanwhile Adora always cared.

now, after this, it's just speculation, but i had an interesting thought.

Catra punched Lonnie ( presumably, as there's no scar or implication that she clawed her, just that she hit her, and that typically means punching ), but clawed Adora. and hard enough to send her flying halfway across the room.

yeah, Catra was angry with Lonnie ( jealous ), but, ultimately, it's Adora who suffers the worst consequence. the writers obviously let Catra do what she likes, but i think this is just more evidence that she knew, even subconsciously, that Adora wouldn't fight back.

i originally thought that Catra only used her claws against Adora because of her hatred and knowing that Adora wouldn't do anything, but there's something else to consider.

she's clawed Octavia, disabling her, and almost did the same to Lonnie.

now, why would she do that to either of them, when neither have that much important to her, in comparison to Adora?

in the first scene, Catra did it just because she could. just because she thought Octavia was, more or less, ugly.

in the second scene, Catra did it because Lonnie pissed her off. but she's been pissed off before, many times, even to Lonnie, so why only try to claw her now?

to me, it reads as her using her claws on a person ( directly or indirectly ) when she knows the other is defenseless, in some way or form, or as a form of punishment. not necessarily because they have importance to her.

Adora just happened to be the one she wanted to punish the most.

[lemonilli]

It's finally time! I'm so happy to be part of the @spopbigbang again this year! 💛 the first chapter of my fic is up c:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65535514/chapters/168702856

My fic The War Is Over is about Adora healing from her PTSD after the war and it's being illustrated by the awesome @dreadraws28 please check out her art it's absolutely lovely!

[justmenoworries]

As much as I despise SPOP fan art that has Glimmer and Adora comfort C*tra about Angella's death, like it shouldn't obviously be the other way around, one thing I find really funny about them is that these fanworks give C*tra way too much credit.

Because in canon, C*tra never shows remorse about killing Angella. The only time she even mentions Angella is in S4. To gloat to Hordak that the Rebellion is going to be reeling from the death of their queen.

Even in S5, when Glimmer and C*tra are alone together on Horde Prime's ship and have no one else to talk to, Angella doesn't come up even once. You'd think Glimmer would at least allude to her or to the fact that C*tra was responsible for her death, but nope. All they talk about is Adora and how funny her PTSD is.

So I'm guessing that one "I'm sorry for everything" was also supposed to entail "I'm sorry for murdering the one healthy mother figure you ever had"? Cause we sure as hell don't hear any sort of apology or see any remorse for it from C*tra for the rest of the season after that.

[aprillikesthings]

#....i've read a fic where this happened to Catra#actually two now that I think of it Hi hello can I please have a title? Or a link even? 👀

(tags copied from my reblog of a post)

Satisfaction by Johannas_Motivational_Insults: https://archiveofourown.org/works/21110984/chapters/50234594

It's post-canon, Adora asks if Catra's willing to spank her in a sexual scenario and accidentally triggers Catra's PTSD. After some discussion they go for it.

What I really like about that one is that Catra's feelings about it are relatable to me personally--the fact that you want to hit someone consensually feels weird when you were abused as a kid. You can logically know that spanking an adult who wants it is vastly different than hurting a child, but there's still that little mean voice in your head going "you're just like your abuser." It's got the added complication, in Catra's case, that she's hurt Adora before.

Anyway they talk it out, they do the scene, it's hot as fuck.

It's more top drop than anything else in this one, but n7punk's Beg For Me: https://archiveofourown.org/series/2564371

AU (but canon species, so Catra is still a catgirl), Catra and Adora are exes that broke up during college, Catra's working as a dominatrix, and they bump into each other at a bachelorette party where Catra's doing a demonstration. Adora becomes one of Catra's clients.

[prettypynklemonade]

Torn (part 4)

by PrettyPynkLemonade

Part 1 💖 Part 2 💖 Part 3 💖

Author's note at the bottom

Proofread by @trippinsorrows

cw/tw: military, parental loss, sexual references, aging, health issues, angst, strong language, character growth, ptsd, trauma (let me know if I've missed anything)

word count: 1.5k

May 23rd,2018

“Mama, I told you I would get the mail from the post office today, the doctor told you to stop driving 4 months ago.” Adora chided her mother. She’d left the army with the rest of the 110th and was adjusting to being back in the real world and helping her mom the best that she was allowed to.

“Child, I have been driving for longer than you’ve been alive. And better if I do say so myself” Her mother, Justine, shot back. Justine James was not someone to second guess or mess with. She retired from the army as a Command Seargent Major and she absolutely commanded attention wherever she went. Yes, her age was catching up with her, but she was just as lively as ever.

“Mama,” Adora sighed, exasperated “I know you’ve been driving since the dinosaurs roamed the Earth, but with 2 cataracts in both eyes and glaucoma, you won’t be driving for much longer if you cause an accident.”

“Okay! You know, you are just as aggressive as your father was, with a smartass mouth to boot. Always bossing people around and being a know-it-all.” Here she goes again, Adora thought. Only ever bringing up her father when she was being irritated was her mom’s specialty, probably because mentioning the good moments only brought tears.

Adora’s father, Frederick James passed away when she was a child. He was a military man himself and was killed in action. She didn’t remember much about him, but she knew her mom was devastated when he passed. They lived on base and her mom got an immediate transfer to another base as soon as the funeral was over. They were the only family they had, and she knew her mom only meant it in jest, but she wished she had been able to know the highly decorated man more than she had the opportunity to.

“You know, I wouldn’t even have to drive that car if you were home more often instead of spending all your time with that Ken Doll.” Her mom concluded with a knowing smirk.

Adora couldn’t lie, she hadn’t been at home much. Since she left the army, she and Reacher had entered into a semi-relationship. Honestly most of their time was spent between the sheets of the master bed in her actual house that Reacher was currently living in. To be fair she wasn’t certain that he actually had a home. They weren’t doing much talking outside of the moans they shared while fucking. It had been all this pent-up sexual tension that he hadn’t let either of them work out until they were dismissed from their duties.

She tried to steer the conversation away from her situationship, not allowing her mom to distract her “Look mama, I’m only trying to help. If you would let me hire someone to care for you-”

“Stop that right there, I am not on my deathbed. I may be old and getting blinder by the day, but I am more than capable of taking care of myself. This is my house! I won’t be inviting any strangers into it! If I need help, I’ll call you or use this stupid LIFE Alert thing you make me wear.” Justine finished resolutely.

And Adora knew she meant business. She let the conversation die, trying not to rile her mother up any more than she already was. She fixed them some food and enjoyed dinner while they watched The Bachelor and critiqued the contestants.

She lost track of time, just enjoying being around her mom. While the 110th was her chosen family, her mom was the only family she had. Maybe she was a little overbearing, but she needed her mom in her life. She was her hero. The one person that was a constant. Adora had grown up on base after base. Spanning 5 of the 7 Continents and she was used to change. She just hoped nothing ever changed between her and her mom.

“Alright mama, I’m gonna head home. Remember that I’m just a call away. And you better call me.” Adora said with a laugh.

“Okay baby, I love you. Get home safe.”

“I love you too mama.”

----------------------------------------------------

On the way home Adora thought of the man who had been sleeping in her bed, when they weren’t sleeping together. She always knew that Reacher wasn’t the type of man who could be kept, and she was comfortable with that. But lately he’d been getting more affectionate, and she wasn’t sure what to do about that. She wanted more, of course, but she was always aware that more wasn’t on the table. No matter what her heart said.

As she pulled into the driveway of the exquisite home the Army had afforded her, she saw Reacher standing in the doorway. Her heart was immediately aflutter. He had a way of looking at her that made her knees weak and panties wet. But she made up her mind. He wasn’t getting his hands on her before they discussed what this was.

Reacher walked up the car as Adora turned it off and opened the door for the stunning woman in front of him. Adora thanked him while avoiding the kiss he tried to place on her lips, allowing him to kiss her cheek instead. “Have you eaten?” she asked, avoiding the hurt look in his eye, as this was the first time she had ever rejected his kiss. “I ordered Thai while you were out, I figured you would be eating with Justine and didn’t want you to feel obligated to cook for me.” He said matter-of-factly. He was nothing if not thoughtful.

As he held the door to her home open for her, she avoided his gaze. Adora walked straight into her living room as Reacher followed behind her and as she sat on the couch where he joined her, she said the words no man ever wants to hear

“We need to talk.”

“About?”

“Us.”

“Okay?”

“What are we doing Reacher? No one word responses, no logical answers, what are we? Period. Because you look at me like I hung the moon, but I don’t think you’ve ever had a long-term relationship with anyone. I don’t want this to be just a couple of months of us hooking up and then you decide it’s over, and then I don’t get an explanation outside of this just being who you are and what you want. I deserve more than whatever is that we’ve been doing.” She rambled nervously. She couldn’t look at him while she spoke, knowing that whatever his answer was, her heart was on her sleeve like a tattoo.

“Oh. Well. I assumed you were my partner. You would be correct in guessing that I haven’t had a long-term relationship in the past, but you’re not my past. In fact, I’d like you to be my future.” He continued “I know I may not show my emotions easily and I keep my responses short, but I feel different with you. Good different. And I don’t ever want that to stop. Not when we’ve just begun.”

Adora looked into Reacher’s crystal blue eyes for the first time since she entered her home and knew he meant every word he said. Her heart felt like it was about to beat out of her chest, in the best way possible.

“Okay.” She said with a relieved sigh.

“Okay?” He repeated.

“Yeah.” She smiled.

“Now who’s the one with one-word responses?” He teased, trying to break the tension even more, knowing it must have taken a lot for her to bring this up to him. He’d noticed her becoming slightly distant a few days before, but he wasn’t a man of emotion, he was one of action. He knew it would only be so long before she aired out her grievances to him. If she hadn’t done it tonight, then he would have had to bring it up himself and that just seemed…revolting. But he’d do it for her. He’d do anything for her.

“I just have one request,” Adora replied “If I give you my heart, you have to give me yours too. If there are any issues, we can handle them together. I’m falling in love with you Reacher, and I don’t love lightly.” She was only slightly lying with that response, as she had known she was in love with him the night of the bonfire. She had the photo framed of that night on her mantelpiece and she knew that if he loved her back, that her heart was safe. Because Reacher took care of his own. And right now, she felt like every part of her being belonged to him.

“You have my heart Adora. I’m falling in love with you too.”

And as they sat on the couch realizing their genuine love for each other, in the back of her mind, all she could think was that she had been wrong before. This right here? This moment was the beginning of the rest of her life.

Author's Note:

Thank you for your patience, while I worked on getting this one out. There should only be 1 more part after this, but it may be a while before I have time to get it posted. Please ask me any questions you have. Be honest, be respectful, and have fun 💖

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[mx-nii]

All of my hyperfixations - past and present - are merging into a chaotic bundle of the Triple Ts (terribly traumatized twinks) and slowly driving me insane.

I can’t focus on my day to day life when I’m constantly thinking of terribly traumatized twinks (not all of them are twinks BUT THEY ARE ALL GAY)

Like genuinely how am I supposed to focus on such trivial matters like pre-calc or my collapsing relationship with my father when all I can think about is:

how Heartstopper isn’t just a cringe teen show, it’s a beautiful representation of being young and queer, and how struggling with mental health can severely impact your most formative years - Charlie had friends and yet still felt completely alone and like he couldn’t burden them with his pain because mental illness fucks with your brain so deeply, it’ll make you believe you have nothing and no one when you may actually have something and someone

or how Dead Boy Detectives isn’t just a silly ghost show (although it’s a wonderful silly ghost show), its a show about how friendship and love can be the most powerful thing in your arsenal (aside from a magic cricket racket) and how your past can haunt (ha) you and how the constant fear of becoming who you hate most in the world will always linger in the back of your mind but your true family can keep you safe and help you heal, and how fucking impossible it is to be gay or a POC at the wrong place, in the wrong fucking time - and maybe you won’t be able to find any peace in your current situation but there is peace out there somewhere, waiting for you patiently. (Charles and Edwin found their peace in their own homebrew afterlife, but seeing as we are mere servants of the mortal plane and not transdimensional beings, we shall have to suffice with sculpting our own peace out of this terrifying world because we fully damn well can, and we deserve it)

or how she-ra isn’t some goofy kid show; it’s a show about how being groomed and manipulated can destroy a child’s psyche so much that it will take years to rebuild (also it’s gay as fuck). catra wasn’t cruel (okay maybe she was just a bit but hear me out guys- I’m due for a rewatch and all I remember is I love that woman more than life itself), she was abandoned again and again and again and all she wanted was for adora to stay, so she wouldn’t be alone anymore, not again. And finally- FINALLY she stayed (giving us one of the most cinematic scenes in history [so just this once, adora: stay]). Adora and Catra are two sides of the same coin. They were both subject to the mental and physical torture of Shadow Weaver and they both responded in different ways due to their own personalities and differences in how they were treated - but they found each other in the end, and always protected each other because that’s what best friends (specifically the really really gay ones) do.

or how the owl house ALSO isn’t a silly kids show, but instead another show about abuse and trauma and growing up queer, and how healing and freeing acceptance is (oh and also some more child soldiers). Amity was so mean to people because meanness and cruelty was all she knew, until Luz took the time to dig a bit deeper and find the real Amity buried deep inside - and how Luz and Amity, even at such a young age, in such a dangerous and confusing world, were ALWAYS there for each other, no matter what

or how 9-1-1 is deeper than just a random fire fire show. It depicts all sorts of personal struggles like post partum depression, PTSD, anxiety, trauma, child neglect/abuse, depression, abandonment, death, foster care, divorce, and ofc: suppressed queerness/comp het! (Eddie literally put Buck in his will and made him the designated legal guardian for Christopher - if that ain’t gay, idk what is)

or how criminal minds has one of the most tragically beautiful found family tropes whilst being a show about the literal scum of the earth? How even in such gruesome circumstances, these people banded together and made the most beautiful family.

or how Percy Jackson is a kids/teen book but delves into such deep and tragic topics so well. Child soldiers, child abuse, being queer at the wrong place and time, coming to terms with being queer, child soldiers, DID I MENTION THE CHILD SOLDIERS??

or how Epic uses expert music theory and lyricism to convey a gorgeous tragedy in the best way I’ve ever seen

or how the grishaverse had so much potential, and is a brilliant literary universe but was BUTCHERED on screen, wasting one of the best casts I’ve ever seen

Genuinely how do I move on with my life when I can’t stop thinking about this (and so many more thoughts that I don’t have the energy to write out at 3:30AM)

[spop-romanticizes-abuse]

What are your thoughts on the episode "Shot In The Dark"? I personally don't like how Catra is shown to have PTSD symtomps and were supposed to take them seriously when Wrong Hordak (which i can't believe they never gave him an actual name, what a way to drill it into his head that he isn't the person that they were actually looking for) and Adora have also shown to do the same and yet were supposed to see it as funny and a joke when they do it. Adora's trauma regarding Catra and her attemps on her life was just boiled down to her being "dumb" in front of the Star Siblings, and Wrong Hordak was ugly crying because he just found out his existence was a lie. Also the fact that this episode once again proves that Adora could literally just breath and Catra would get mad with that "I'm working on my anger scene" which i guess is another "joke" my having Catra get angry at Adora just for appreciating her "working" on her anger issues

i.. don't remember much of that episode honestly. but i agree, it's so annoying how catra's trauma is the only one taken seriously. wrong hordak was unnecessary, first of all, but if they were gonna include him as a character, at least take his trauma seriously? he was a literal clone who was brainwashed to think and act a certain way, his existential crisis shouldn't be a haha funny moment.

same with adora. and every other character, in fact. i don't know why they even bothered putting the other characters through trauma if they were never going to mention it. in that case, why not just make catra the only character with a sad backstory?

honestly, every episode in s5 was just annoying and frustrating to me. the entire season was a dumpster fire.

[baggebythesea]

Hello! I've got a very specific question here, so take your time to answer it:

Basically if the best friend squad had made new friends whom they've grown to care about and there's a person who has hurted said new friends to the point of giving them ptsd but that person is trying to be a better person now but doesn't understand the consequences of they're actions nor even cares about how much they traumatized the new friends how would the bf squad interact with that person?

Honestly, that feels like the kind of situation the Best Friends Squad has dealt with a lot. Between Adora, Catra, Scorpia, Entrapta, Hordak, Shadow Weaver and Horde Prime they have seen similar dynamics play out before, and they have developed a pretty clear strategy: Befriend, love, cherish and keep safe their new friend, and to the extent it's possible do the same with the other person too.

If needed, stop the other person from doing more harm. If they need to be kept away from their new friend for their wellbeing, give them a timeout in in the comfy chair or Brightmoon garden. And if they genuinely want to be a better person - try to teach them.

Now, the best friends squad are not naive. They know it's hard - in fact, they know painfully well how hard it is. They also know how much old wounds and old trauma hurts. But they truly believe that the friendship solution is the right way, and they will do their very best to stick to it.

[mika-0730]

Get prime numbers'd

Omg here we go, there's so many uwehhhh

2. What am i obsessed with right now?

Right now i would say my hyperfixation is Manga and Tales of Symphonia! I've been reading a ton of manga nonstop and my friend has been streaming ToS for us and it's been really fun ^^

3. Have i ever done any drugs?

Routinely eat weed edibles and tonic but that's it. Am interested in shrooms for the PTSD therapy though

5. How many people have i kissed

Hkbsknkbsojpsjkbekbsbjjdg technically 2.5?

The .5 comes from a coworker who kissed me on the lips (no tongue THANK FUCK LOL) on his last day of work??? It was fuckin weird lmao

The others were my ex and someone else

7. Who are you jealous of?

I try not to be jealous of people, but i tend to get jealous at people with supportive families/surrounding people and partners. I've finally got a friend group who supports me, but it's been very isolating otherwise

11. If i could teleport anywhere in the world, where would i go?

It depends, if i have a return teleport probably Japan? I've wanted to go for a loooooong time. If i have to get back normally, probably just to a friend's house nearby or to fuckin portillos since doordash IS DRIVING AWAY WITH MY FOOD

13. Do you have/would i get my nipples pierced?

I would LOVE to get them pierced but I'm a big baby around pain t_t i would need lots of positive reinforcement while it's happening

17. Am i angry with someone right now?

Yeah, big time, no one who follows me here though

19. Would i change my name and what would i change it to?

I'm thinking of changing it to "Mika Adora Morgan"! Still up for debate though

23. 5 favorite bands/musical artists

Right now it's probably Ado, Spyair, Yoasobi, and after that it's a bit hard to say. I've been listening to a lot of Mina-bass and amalee recently!

29. Most overrated movie?

Can i say like every superhero movie ever? It's just exhausting

31. Already answered this one ^^

37. Any tattoos?

No but i wish i did!!! Big baby around pain, but maybe in the future!

41. How many followers go i have?

Last i checked around 43ish?

43. What's my guilty pleasure?

Reading really shitty manga, especially isekai and c tier romance manga (and especially c tier

47. If i could marry any and celebrity who would it be?

None, I'm demi and unless there's a rich girl celebrity who wants to marry me for clout to say "look I'm married to a trans woman!" And give me the million dollars from earlier I'm not interested

[haitanghusky]

When I used to write and post, I liked to know when the chapters made someone feel something. Back in 2021 I posted an SPOP fic. It hardly got any views, and I was a little disheartened because I thought that at that time SPOP had been so big that people would have, like me, swarmed AO3 for fanfics to continue the journey. But my little corner of the fandom on the website remained untouched. The best comment I had received was "crying in da club" and it made me feel so much better that for at least one person, the intent of what I had written had stirred up emotions. The intention behind the fic was to explore the psychological impact between Catra and Adora that growing up in the Fight Zone and with Shadow Weaver would have had, the emotional impact that fighting in a war would have had, the choices they made, and learning with each other how to knock down walls they had built to keep themselves moving. To learn to lean on each other, and learn to communicate through the barriers they had erected long ago to keep themselves safe. It was also a glance at what PTSD could be for some, how it could manifest. It was a healing journey for not only the characters, but for me as well because of the life I had lived up to that point. And that one comment telling me that this person I didn't know had felt something from my writing made it all worth it.

BTW i see these posts all the time like "ohhh i dont know what to comment on fics.." and every response is "keysmashes! or hearts!! anything works :3" and thats GREAT!! thats helpful!!

but: consider. if u genuinely like analyzing writing.. do u know ur just allowed to go through and quote your favorite parts and ramble abt what they mean to u and the author will LOSE IT WITH HYPE?

genuinely. i felt SO WEIRD the first time i did it.. but like. holy shit authors love it. its crack for authors. the first time i did it, it was on a fic that hadnt updated in half a year, give or take, and the author made 3 updates that month BECAUSE OF MY COMMENT.

LIKE. as an author every comment is INCREDIBLE!!! but also, dont feel like your comment has to be short or otherwise ur invasive or smth!! authors ADORE long comments more than ANYTHING.

[eternal-ether-fanfic]

Shards of Hope

fanfic idea

A descendant of Scorpia wants to retake the throne of her lost kingdom, urged on by a Shadow trapped in the dark crystal at it's heart. This is a bit like a lich phylactery situation - Shadow Weaver wove an actual shadow of her mind into the reflections of the crystal, and it's been slowly regaining it's power, plotting, biding it's time. It needs a body to be reborn and seize the crystals full potential. At the heart of Etheria, this might be done.

She helps the fledgling princess of shadows to form an army through manipulation, magic, threats, coercion, and mind control. A new Horde is woven in the wastelands and abandoned polluted technocrypt where Hordak once ruled. [Maybe that weird demon baby he had around becomes relevant here somehow?]

The latest She-Ra goes to battle against the new Woven Horde [still workshopping the name] but since an era of peace and prosperity has washed over the land, she is inexperienced. This leads to her failure at a critical moment, shattering the Sword of Protection. Each shard now carries only part of She-Ra's power, and has its own form, a shield, a bow maybe?

The new princesses of the alliance are each given a shard that helps them use their unique powers, but some are maybe lost or infected by the Horde. Could have some older adora and catra ptsd type moments remembering shadow weaver, seeing her slowly take over the new princess of the wastes, battling for the heart of etheria. The ending could maybe be exorcising the shadow from the crystal and the new princess and returning Scorpias lost territory.